emo snapshots

The nature of this activity is to remember how it felt when it happened. Maybe it's no longer true -- maybe you found out later on it was all hormones. Nonetheless, at that moment, nothing else mattered.

So these are snapshots of my more emotional moments, in chronological order. Crucify Ailene for bringing this on (she, in turn, blames Ida).


ONE. I was seven, or maybe six, it was night and you took me to the basketball court to watch the neighborhood pa-liga. The court lights were on like on the movies you watch, and lots of people were cheering and laughing, excited about the game. You bought me cotton candy and popcorn, and told me stories of how great your running jumpshot was when you were still young. You were my hero.

The game started and the action was furious. Even at that age I could tell you were happy at where we were. But a child's attention is fickle, and pretty soon I was ignoring the game and running on the sidelines, playing with my imaginary friends. At one point I suddenly looked at you, and you were ignoring the basketball game like I was. Instead, you were looking at me and I saw how pleased you were with me, for reasons I do not know. When the game ended, we shared a footlong sandwich from Smokey's and you promised me you'll buy me the wrap-around dog next time. You carried me -- your little boy -- up to your shoulders all the way home. I was on top of the world.

TWO. I woke up at dawn, to a pale pink sky. We slept on your roof, and the mourners at your tita's wake were all gone. You and your friends were still asleep and that's fine -- the cold breeze rolling on the fields across your house was companion enough. I looked, and there you were; my fingers couldn't stop themselves from playing with your hair. Your friend woke up and wanted to (laughingly) throw me off the roof after seeing how I was looking at you. It didn't matter -- for the first time in my life I knew I could find what I was searching for.

THREE. You looked from me from across the room, and I knew we were both thinking of the same thing. You're late by 14 days, and we were both too proud to show that we were scared. I left our class and stood outside, gazing at the morning sky. Every bit of my being wanted to run -- away from everything, but I knew I would never do that to you, or to anyone. I just wish we could graduate from highschool.

FOUR. The Pantranco-bound jeep was taking forever to come, but it was midnight, and none of us minded the delay. I was standing beside you; and you, humming quietly in the dark. I pulled your shoulder closer, inadvertently placing your head on my chest. The move, of course, silenced us both; and the night dared us to ask the questions we dare not face. Pretty soon, I said to myself, I have to come out clean. I can't keep saying I'm just a friend when I'm holding you like this.

FIVE. I stopped and sat on concrete, on one of the buildings along Gil Puyat Avenue. It was around 2 in the morning, and I was blinded by tears on the long walk from Sheraton Hotel to Boni. Two drunken men walked past; a few minutes later, a gang of seven youths. Both groups left me unmolested -- even they could see I had nothing left to lose.

SIX. I ran -- because it was the only thing I could do. Strangers that we still were, I had no idea our bodies would meld so well. How each piece fit, how a simple hug can remind me of things I thought I already lost. I ran -- because otherwise I would never have let go.

SEVEN. You were busy staring at the ring, and oblivious to my observation. A few minutes ago, I read you the cheesiest of poems, and talked about things we already knew. Your eyes reflected a joy I vowed to remember; and I knew, at that instant, amidst all expectations, that I did good.

because i haven't talked in a while

Ailene's been on this survey fix lately -- eh gaya gaya ako. And because I haven't talked here for quite some time. Who would have known I would miss you guys? ;-p

"Eh Kung pang Star Cinema lang ang buhay mo?"

50: Mountain Dew or Mello Yello? Mountain Dew. every time.

49: Sino mas maganda: Ashley Judd or Kate Beckinsale? Beckinsale, pare. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero naiyak ako sa Click nung matanda na sila at nagsasayaw sila nung kanta ng Cranberries. Sobrang ganda nya, hindi ako gumawa ng review bashing the movie Vacancy. Wag na lang nating pag-usapan, mabuburyong ka lang.

48: Which is faster: Subaru WRX or Mistubishi Evo Lancer IV? I have no idea. Mitsubishi Evo siguro. Antulin non sa NFS Most Wanted eh.

47: Who will win a fight between Captain Planet & San Goku? San Goku. syempre. Captain Planet is a wuss.

46: Where do you wanna be right now? Beach, actually. The rhythmic sound of the waves crashing on the shore... hypnotic.

45: Who are you closer to: mom or dad? Hmm... pareho lang ata.

44: Who is prettier: Cristy Fermin or Eagle? or.

43: Colt 45 or Red Horse? Di ko pa natikman kahit ano dito. hiluhin ako eh :p

42: Evanescence or Lacuna Coil? Di ko kilala Lacuna Coil kaya Evanescence na lang.

41: Metallica or Frank Sinatra? Frank Sinatra. Gusto ko sepia ako eh.

40: Linkin Park or Rick Astley? Again, di ko kilala si Rick Astley. Tsaka pag nagdo-dota ka sa internet shops pag madaling araw astig ang Linkin Park.

39: Who will win - Godzilla vs.King Kong? Di ba kayang magbuga ng apoy ni Godzilla?

38: Zsa-zsa Padilla or Kuh? Zaturnnah! (di ko napanood, actually. loser talaga.)

37: Cooler villain: Mr. Smith from Matrix or Deacon Frost from Blade? Smith. of the Mr. & Mrs movie. Biruin mong binugbog na sya ni Angelina tapos sex pa sila? San ka pa.

36: What if they Deacon Frost & Mr. Smith fought each other? Mr. Smith pa din. Deacon Frost wasn't that scary.

35: Deacon Frost vs. Captain Planet? Sige na nga, Deacon Frost. Bading si Captain Planet eh.

34: Shaider vs. Batman? Batman! Walang tatalo. Maski si Green Lantern ilag kay Batman eh.

33: Who would you rather be shipwrecked in an island with: A hot partner or Macguyver? a hot partner. deserted island and a hot partner -- ano pang hahanapin mo?

32: If Aliens attacked the Carebears, who will win? Carebears. stare pa lang talo ka na.

31: Is Nora Daza a better cook than your mom? No.

30: Is Joey De Leon funnier than your dad? Hell no.

29. Who is funnier? Adam Sandler or Jim Carrey? Mas gusto ko sila pag medyo drama.

28. Can Jason Bourne defeat Chuck Norris? Naku, condolence sa pamilya ng gumawa ng survey na 'to. Chuck Norris is out to get him for asking this question!

27: If a ninja fought a viking who would win? Ninja. May loser-mentality ang viking eh. They know that in the end, they will lose.

26: If you cross a Doberman with a Labrador, would you call it a Dobrador or a Laberman? I'll call it Poochy. Para akala ng mga kapitbahay maliit lang yung aso. Pag nagnakaw sila patay sila.

25: When was the last time you ate hot pandesal? It’s been too long. (tama ka, Ailene)

24. What if Jet Li fought a Grizzly Bear? Will his kung-fu be useful? Yep. Jet Li can fly. No special effects.

23. What if Jet Li fought your boss? Patay sya, di sya marunong mag-ingles eh.

22. What if Jet Li fought all the Liliputs in Gulliver’s Travel’s? Anuba. Da One nga si Jet Li eh.

21: Who is richer? Lucio Tan or Gokongwei? Lucio Tan. 3M per columnist para lang mapaganda image nya. wala pa din.

20: If your life is made into a Hollywood film. Who would you like to portray you? Yung nasa Mac Ads, yung tinulungan ni John McClane.

19: Eh kung pang Star Cinema lang ang pelikula ng buhay mo, sino ang gusto mong gumanap bilang “ikaw?” Jericho Rosales. Para nahahalikan ko si Heart. Saka sabi ni Angelica Panganiban sya daw ang best showbiz kiss nya eh. Para may pagkaka-pareho naman kami :p (naks!)

18: If Wolverine fought Edward Scissorhands, who will win? Wolverine. Don't mess with James.

17: If you were walking alone then suddenly a Lion came out from across the street looking at you, what would you do? Sayaw kaming Hakuna Matata.

16: Mas masarap ba ang isaw kaysa sa chicharon bulaklak? Mas gusto ko balun-balunan.

15: If 15 T-rexes attacked Godzilla, would he survive? Ano ba nakatalo kay Godzilla?

14: If 15 T-rexes attacked Chuck Norris, would he survive? Why do you think the dinosaurs became extinct in the first place?

13: If Jollibee fought Pong Pagong in an MTV celebrity deathmatch, who would you root for? Pong. Mukhang sabog to eh.

12: Kapag nagsapakan si Teofisto Guingona at si Gus Abelgas? Sino mananalo? Guingona din sa tingin ko.

11: Would you prefer fish fried or grilled? Grilled.

10: Who looks hotter… Heidi Klum or Cristy Fermin? Heidi Klum. yum.

9: Even if Heidi Klum only had 1 leg? How's that a disadvantage?

8: Even if Heidi Klum has bad breath? one word: gag.

7: Even if Heidi Klum had leprosy? Nagagamot nga yun. And while maysakit pa sya i'll be kind to her para mas gustuhin nya ko.

6: Okay, okay is Big Bird a boy or a girl? I don't care. I hate Sesame Street.

5: Sinigang na baboy or kare-kare? Sinigang. omaygads.

4: Kahit na double dead ang baboy sa sinigang? e di ako kumakain ng kare-kare eh.

3: Do you think you can outrun an angry bull elephant? oo.

2: Which pizza has more grease: Yellow Cab’s or Pizza Hut’s? Yellow Cab

1: Which tastes better: Minute Burger burgers or Burger Machine burgers? Burger Machine mehn. Kumakain ka ba nito? Bakit kailangan pang tanungin?

UP ako. Ikaw?

1. ANO’NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
98-****3 (masama ba kung sabihin talaga? bakit di-dinisclose ni ailene?)

2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
Journalism sa Diliman.

3. SECOND CHOICE?
Journalism. Baguio

4. ANO COURSE MO NA NATAPOS?
Journalism. Diliman.

5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
Bakit?

6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
uh. i actually don't know.

7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
Nope. At taga-Bulacan ako ha.

8. NAKA 4 KA BA?
Nevah.

9. NAG-KA 3 KA NA BA?
pinakamababa ko 2.25 ata eh. Math 1. hehe.

10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Oo. sayang pamasahe eh. Wala na nga akong pera magbubulakbol pa -- napakalaking katangahan naman non diba?

11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA B??
College Scholar. Minsan ata University Scholar din. A saka PDI scholar nga din pala ako.

12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
tapos na 'pre.

13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
Hindi.

14. FAVE PROF
may mga subjects lang na fun. ay si Rolando Tolentino pala enjoy na teacher. Danny Arao. Rachel Kahn. Yung teacher ko din ng Hum 1 magaling. Si Dean Teodoro di ko naging teacher pero ininterview ko sya for thesis. antalino. lahat ng analysis ata ng thesis ko galing sa kanya.

15. WORST TEACHER
May mga teacher na di pumapasok eh. bad trip.

16. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
Film Genres. Film 101. Philosophy of Religion. Sociology. Humanities 1 (astig to). Fiction writing.

17. WORST SUBJECT:
yung subject about rizal. di kasi pumapasok yung prof eh.

18. FAVE BUILDING:
ChristMass tambayan.

19. PABORITONG KAINAN:
Thai Canteen. pinaka-miss ko to sa UP. haaaaaaaaaaaay.

20. MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
Di ko na tanda pare, sorry.

21. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
Hindi. Di lang ako nawawalan ng librong dala. puro fiction.

22. NAGPUPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC?
nung nasapak ako ng lasing.

23. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
Dami syempre.

24. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING P.E. MO?
Swimming, Judo, Arnis, Table Tennis

25. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Naging close sila, ako di masyado. May sarili talaga akong mundo eh.

26. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG HYMN NIYO?
May hymn kami?

27. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
Nope. Sayang nga eh. Ganda daw ng jacket.

28. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Pag essay type lang.

29. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
Hindi. High school yan, syempre.

30. DITO KA BA UNANG NAINLOVE?
Oo. hehe. bwiset.

The Weirdest Survey. Ever.

01: Ano ang problema mo?
Too many games. So little time.

02: Bakit sadyang may mga taong tanga?
Pampa-aliw.

03: Ano ang masasabi mo sa mga taong mahilig manloko?
R E P E N T ! !

04: Sa paanong paraan magiging masaya ang isang tulad mo?
kapag may superpowers nako. Actually, may kumplikadong mythos na sa utak ko about it.

05: Kung luluha ka uli, ano o sino ang magiging dahilan nito?
Pag lumabas na ang Diablo 3.

06: Sino ang taong nagpapasaya sayo ngayon?
Si leah. Si ikay. Ako.

07: Bakit hindi sagot ang pagpapakamatay sa mga problemang dumarating sa ating buhay?
walang challenge eh.

08: Kaya mo bang magpakamatay para sa pagibig?
Kung nung dark and brooding ako hindi, ngayon pa?

09: Ano ang mga pangarap mo sa buhay?
Yung powers ko nga. Mag story-travel (like time travel, but across stories)

10: Kung may tao kang gustong patayin, sino ito?
Sa ngayon, wala. Mga child abusers siguro.

11: Bakit naman?
Bata yun eh!

12: Matapang ka ba?
Di naman. Pag kailangan lang.

13: Ano ang pinakamalaking kasalanang nagawa mo sa taon na ito?

14: Madali ka bang magsawa?
Hindi. Pag gusto ko, gusto ko na talaga.

15: Ano ang masasabi mo sa mga taong martyr?
'tanga.

16: Seryoso ka bang tao?
Dati, di na ngayon. Sayang oras eh.

17: ‘Pag namatay ka ngayong oras na ito, marami kayang tao ang iiyak?
Oh yeah. In the words of one ex, "pag nanggaling sa'yo, wala nang hahanapin pa."

18: Masakit ka bang magsalita pag galit ka?
Hindi. Kinukurot ko na lang. bruha.

19: Pikon ka ba?
Oo. Siguro. Di ko masyadong iniintindi eh.

20: Huling bilin?
Live. Grow Stronger. Fight another Day.

Yan na muna. Actually, I have a lot of stories to tell. Leah's ring. That essay I mean to write about the David men. How Marian Rivera won me over 5 seconds into her dance at the Marimar Press launch. Die Hard 4.0. The sea. Dying young. drooling over PSP. The twin swords Diem and Noctem. Less than 200 days before the wedding. Andami.

Maybe when I have the time. Pero mas malamang gagawa din ako nung Emo Verbal Snapshots. Sabi sa inyo gaya-gaya ako eh :p

lean sa mamamayan

The girlfriend, thinking it was a play which bore the same name, was able to secure tickets for last night's Lean: Gabi ng Pag-alala at the PETA theater. I just came from a lecture of PR Guru Max Edralin at the Hotel Intercon in Makati which spanned hours, and was antsy to rush to my father who will have a kidney operation on the next day -- going to a play I've never heard before was, understandably, the last on my priorities.

But the girlfriend was excited to go and I didn't have the heart to turn away from a thing I unmindfully said yes to a couple of days ago. So amid the unexpected heavy rains and EDSA traffic, I deftly maneuvered Kewl (the car) from Makati to PETA in hopes of making it before the first act.

We need not have worried. What we thought of as a play turned out to be a gathering to remember the 20th death anniversary of Lean Alejandro -- student activitst, militant, leader, hero. He lived a short life -- he was 27 when he was assassinated -- but he touched so many lives, influenced thousands of minds, and dedicated his life to a cause that even two decades after his death, people still come from all corners of the globe, from all walks of life, to remember him.

It turned out to be a pleasant gathering. Old grizzled warriors, their hearts and minds as sharp as when they were in the forefront of battle, greeted each other with warmth, camaraderie, a few tears quickly brushed off, and yes, perhaps even love.

The girlfriend and I were obviously outsiders to this group -- everyone knew everybody else. Catching snatches of conversations while I went around the room pawing those tasty popped beans, I was witness to old ties remade, of friendships remembered, of struggles shared.

Reading some of the write ups accompanying the many pictures of Lean plastered on the walls, and hearing that beautiful piece read by a friend of Lean (the girlfriend says she's a famous journalist), I was faced with a fact I knew before but managed to forget: Behind the images of violence and incessant shouts of "ibagsak ang US-insertyourphilpresidenthere imperyalismo", these people are one of the most passionate you could ever meet. They laugh, they cry, they fight, they love as if the next minute they could die -- because that was the truth of the lives they led.

We went home shortly after Cookie Chua and Noel Cabangon sang Lean (from the play). On the way home, however, I couldn't help but wonder just how different I am compared to Lean and other leftist freedom fighters.

We both see something beyond the reality of the lives we live in, and aspire to reach that vision. We both believe with all our hearts, but even more, we question and test to evaluate the validity of our beliefs. We try to teach others to see this vision, this truth that is so evident to us.

He died for his beliefs. I'm struggling to live for the God whom I serve.


This sense of brotherhood aside, I left the gathering both impressed and prayerful about the people we saw there. They have dedicated their lives to an ideal, and lived every moment, picked every choice according to that ideal. It's hard not to be impressed by people that strong.

May peace descend upon them and their houses.

Do not go gentle into that good night
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

- Dylan Thomas (Do not go gentle into that good night)

* Lean Alejandro photo from Tinig.com
** Lean mp3 from garygranada.com

Laban!

If only for this post, I like this guy already.

I remember once, covering the Southeast Asian Games in Cebu, how Gretchen Malalad would glare at an opponent, her model-looks transforming into that of a hungry tiger eyeing a cornered prey, and punch her chest hard right where the Philippine flag was stitched on her uniform.

“Just to show my opponent what I’m doing this for,” Gretchen said when I spoke to her after the match, where she won for the country a gold medal in the karate competitions.

In that same event, Marna Pabillore also won the gold medal and then she took a Philippine flag attached to a pole thrice her height and run around the gymnasium, waving it.

Needless to say, a roar erupted in the coliseum. So loud, it shook the rafters.

Go read the rest of the post. Seriously. You could also click here to visit theboyfromsmallville's site.

The road to tomorrow

What is God's will in marriage? How can we love our in laws, despite the initial difficulties we have encountered? How should we handle the issue of money, especially since she's earning a ton more than I do? What's the godly way of raising kids? Is it better to keep the things that happened in the past buried or should we raise them like zombies? How do you keep the romance alive through the years? How do we break down the walls that we have built our entire lives and start living as one? Why is a man asked to love the woman, while the woman asked to submit to the man? What are the tips to having a mind-blowing sex life? And most importantly, on the moments when the thing we want most is to stab each other to pieces, where is the safest place to hide the knives?

These are just some of the questions Kuya Dong, our pastor, would guide us through in our sessions.

To read the rest of the article, click here or visit Leah's wedding preps blog (Counting the Days).

Rise of the Chevy Autobots!

New game! New game!

My friend Monmon buzzed me through YM and very slyly prodded me to check out www.chevyautobot.com. It's TRANSFORMERS: Rise Of The Chevy Autobots!

Level 1 pa lang ako. You guys sign up and let's challenge each other. My callsign is Mokus Maximus. Email add mpdavid @ [insert my company here -- yes, im not putting my actual email ad, you have to supply it] . com and challenge me :)

What's your excuse?

For the first time in a long time, I decided to obey the makati number coding scheme which does not provide for a window period for banned cars. I guess I woke up fearing the eagle eyes of the MAPSA. So I took a cab to the office, anticipating that I would be able to rest – perhaps even sleep – through the traffic. But it was not meant to be.

The cab driver was a chatty one. I used to not mind talkative drivers, especially when they give me a lecture on how to take care of the car...

To read the rest of the article, click here or visit stillearthbound.

FullCup End-of-Summer JAM!

We're starting the next phase of FullCup with the FullCup SUMMER JAM this May 18, 7:30 pm, at 690 Real St, Intramuros! We’ll have Converging Resonance, Banana Island, Alab, and Emanwel. Hope you can join us :)

Writer ka ba?

GMA is looking for a Publicity Specialist that will handle its News & Public Affairs accounts. So if you have a solid background on writing, willing to travel in the regions (Cebu, Davao, Iloilo) from time to time, interested in championing Serbisyong Totoo -- email me your resume ASAP.

Pakasal na tayo!

She's buried with work, her online page is experiencing death-by-stagnation, she has a million other things clamoring for her attention, clients are hunting her for help...


So what is she doing?


She's sifting through brochures.


Drop by Leah's new blog from time to time and read her adventures in wedding preparation.

pakasalnatayo.blogspot.com

Di naman obvious anong nasa isip nya these days no? :)

Bibliophile Meme

Seestur Ailene tagged me.

1. One book that changed your life.
Mythology, by Edith Hamilton. This is the first book I read that wasn't assigned by the teacher. I never knew stories could be this beautiful.

2. One book you have read more than once.
Michael Crichton's Sphere. Not that it's my all-time favorite book, but Michael Crichton's novels have always tickled the sci-fi geek in me. Chaos Theory, Unique Event Hypothesis, Extra Terrestrial Anthromorphism... just don't mind the movie versions, use your own imagination, and the book will give you a hell of a ride.

3. One book you would want on a desert island.
The Holy Bible. You want stories? You want cries of indignation and despair? Songs of hope? Truths/Mysteries? A biography of one eternally interesting man?

4. One book that made you laugh.
Tick Tock by Dean Koontz. Screwball comedy. Wacky dialogue. Remember to never anger your Thai mother!

5. One book that made you cry.
Lorenzo Carcaterra's SLEEPERS. Childhood friendships should be like this.

6. One book you wish had been written.
Love, by Jesus of Nazareth. I'd really REALLY love to read what He scribbled on the sand.

7. One book you wish had never been written.
Hmm. wala na

man. don't read if you don't like, di ba?

8. One book you are currently reading.
Yann Martel's Life of Pi. A 450-pound Royal Bengal Tiger trapped in a lifeboat with a boy who is a Christian, a Hindu, and Muslim (yep, all at the same time). About 300 days in the Pacific. A botanical-island-oddity. Robinson Crusoe would love this boy.

9. One book you have been meaning to read.
Philip Yancey's Prayer: Does it Make Any Difference?. Philip Yancey's one of my favorite Christian authors and this is his latest book. John managed to snag a copy -- I'm just waiting for him to drop it and I'm going to snatch it from him right away :)

Tag five people for this meme.

10 things weird about you

I don't really know what constitutes 'weird' for everyone, but Din (i lab this gurl) tagged me (this sounds sooooooooo 2004) so here goes:

Instructions: A person who gets tagged must write in his or her blog ten weird things or habits or little known facts about himself or herself. He or she should also state this rule clearly. At the end, he or she should tag six other people, except the one who tagged him or her.

1. I am OC about drinking water. Nanlilimahid na sa dumi ang bahay, ok lang, pero di pwedeng konti na lang ang tubig.

2. My mother enrolled me on piano lessons when I was in Grade 1. I lasted two lessons. I bugged my father to buy me a guitar in highschool to be in a band. I ended up as 'band manager'. Some people at the worship team at church actually have to pause in their singing and give extra effort to mind their tones because my singing 'influences' their voices. Nevertheless, in my dreams, I remain a rockstar.

3. I believe I have powers. basta.

4. Girl-junkie ako nung highschool. Agnostic nung college. Kristiyano ngayon.

5. I have PC games that make me sleep - as in naka-upo ako sa harap ng computer, holding the mouse, snoring. I love them.

6. I HATE RATS. George Orwell's 1984 made me this way.

7. It's so 90s, pero nagbabaligtad ako nang salita. tihak atnak, tihak as pasuu-gap. my friends have to translate on the fly.

8. I don't fix my bag, my table, my room, my house -- but I can't leave my bed unmade after waking up. First thing to do yan. ever.

9. Sa sobrang kulit ko nung bata ako, lahat nang pwedeng pagkulungan, kinulong na ako. Sa banyo, sa kwarto, sa closet, sa kulungan nang manok. 5 minutes lang naman.

10. Lahat ng girlfriends ko nung highschool -- even the ones na sobra sobrang gusto ko at pamatay na panliligaw ang ginawa ko -- ako ang nakipag-break.

I tag Leah, Ida, Bebelene, Pareng Jorge, G!, John. Mag-post kayo mga kolokoy! :p

Firefox - quickened

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My Favorite Mistake

My Favorite Mistake
Season 3, Grey's Anatomy

[so you know what I’m talking about, drop by the Grey’s Anatomy episode guide or watch this video first:]



George and Izzie. George and Izzie. George and Izzie. They’ve been best friends since day 1. Has been there for each other through the terror residents, the death of Denny, the Meredith fiasco, ‘feeding the monster’ with Alex, STD with Olivia, the $8.7 million cheque, the death of George’s father, and Callie.

Callie, George’s wife.

It’s wrong. wrong. wrong. That’s the long and short of it. George is married, and that’s that. It was a mistake, something George and Izzie never saw coming but it did happen.

The hot, amazing – illicit – sex happened.

We saw it and we couldn’t believe our eyes. This is George and Izzie – the goofy duo that brings light moments to the otherwise overly dramatic lives of the surgeons in Seattle Grace. Sure, Izzie’s been mourning the death of Denny for a season now, but we have faith because it’s George. George the good guy. George the only guy who stood up to Callie’s father. The family-guy. The perfect, husband-material guy.

Then life pulled the rug from George’s feet through the death of his father. George being lost and holding on to the closest lifeline -- a spur-of-the-moment wedding with Callie. The constant fights with the wife. Izzie fighting for her best friend whom she thinks made a terrible mistake. Then the night they got drunk.

And the hot, amazing – and still illicit – sex happened.


I was watching this episode with my hand over my mouth completely mortified. When George finally remembered what happened, I could see the confusion and helplessness in his eyes. He knew nothing would be the same after this. He could lose his best friend. He is on the way to losing his wife. If he could take everything back, he’ll do it in a heartbeat.

But he can’t. It’s done. No power on earth can take back the mistake he made.

My favorite scene in this episode – my favorite scene in all of Grey’s Anatomy’s three series, is the linen closet scene when George just remembered what happened to him and Izzie. There were no words, because really, what can you say?

I like this scene because of its technical execution and the exemplary performance of the actors. I love it, however, because of what George chose to do in this scene.

They paced like caged animals because that’s what they really were – caged. Emotions were running sky high. They’re no longer drunk, but the sex could still happen right then and there. George was sorry, and confused, and with no inkling of an idea what to do. Then Izzie touches his face, and suddenly, possibilities – scary, surprising, confusing possibilities – arose.

George was bewildered but he knew the mistake he made could multiply in that closet. So despite emotions, despite what he wanted, despite the excitement, despite the possibilities, he walked out.

The world will say that if you feel something, be true to yourself and go for it. That’s why husbands who’s been married for 35 years leave their wives for a woman 20 years his junior who ‘gets’ him. But there are more important things than emotions. Like commitment. Like doing the right thing. At that moment in the linen closet, despite the shadow of the most horrible mistake he made in his whole life, George still chose the right thing. Most of us can’t quite claim the same.

I don’t know how the Grey’s Anatomy writers would sort this out. I don’t know how exactly but I would like to think that everything would be ok. That George would come clean to his wife, that they would work it out and everything would turn out right for them – George, Izzie, and Callie.

It will be hard, it will be hurtful, it may seem impossible, but I prefer to believe in redemption.

Both in TV and in real life.

dying of thirst, here in the fountain

In all my 26 years on this earth, 97% of my enemies emerged when I became a Christian.

I have had unbelievers laugh at me when I tell them about the Good News of Christ’s salvation – some of them my friends who jokingly remind me of what I used to do before I became a Christian. I’ve had colleagues and fellow students debate with me when I tell them about my faith. I’ve had my family cry when I speak of the need to become born again. I’ve met indifference, wonder, interest, disbelief and a host of other reactions, but not once did I get hurt when I spoke to unbelievers about sin and Jesus –- not once, until I spoke to my fellow believers.

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House of M

House of M is a comic book crossover mini-series published by Marvel Comics back in 2005. Lead writer Brian Bendis was quoted that House of M would "shake the world" of Marvel. While this claim may sound extravagant, House of M's far-reaching and lasting effect on the Marvel universe certainly propels it as one of the more important mini-series the publishing house has produced. Unlike Days of Future Past or the Age of Apocalypse which happened in alternate timelines, House of M took place in the mainstream Marvel universe.

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PURE

We've had PURE light, PURE calling, PURE worship, and a host of other PUREs in FullCup's long run. Now we're going back to the basics -- plain. simple. unadulterated worship night.

PURE.

Come worship with us this Friday, March 9, 7:30 pm. Join us as we end our topic for two semesters -- "Who on Earth was Jesus?" and do what we are meant to do -- to shed our shame and fears, to let go of pride and hurts, to bow down and kneel towards the Lamb that was slain. All woship. All night. This Friday at the Cup.

i hate the cheesy things but here i am

because we met again.

now i want to be a body snatcher

BAKIT HINDI SA AKIN NANGYARI ITO????




Pare, pinag-pala ka. But for some reason, you don't want your photo posted, so I'm using your cameraman's.

Stranger than Fiction

We are all living dreary lives with the inevitability of death hanging over our heads. It doesn't matter whether you're a farmer or a rock star, the President of the land or a saleswoman no different from thousands of others, we are all living incomplete lives -- lives with holes so big we end up plugging ineffectively at them. We are, in essence, all Harold Cricks -- good at what we do but ultimately living pointless lives.

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