Wednesday, August 08, 2007

emo snapshots

The nature of this activity is to remember how it felt when it happened. Maybe it's no longer true -- maybe you found out later on it was all hormones. Nonetheless, at that moment, nothing else mattered.

So these are snapshots of my more emotional moments, in chronological order. Crucify Ailene for bringing this on (she, in turn, blames Ida).


ONE. I was seven, or maybe six, it was night and you took me to the basketball court to watch the neighborhood pa-liga. The court lights were on like on the movies you watch, and lots of people were cheering and laughing, excited about the game. You bought me cotton candy and popcorn, and told me stories of how great your running jumpshot was when you were still young. You were my hero.

The game started and the action was furious. Even at that age I could tell you were happy at where we were. But a child's attention is fickle, and pretty soon I was ignoring the game and running on the sidelines, playing with my imaginary friends. At one point I suddenly looked at you, and you were ignoring the basketball game like I was. Instead, you were looking at me and I saw how pleased you were with me, for reasons I do not know. When the game ended, we shared a footlong sandwich from Smokey's and you promised me you'll buy me the wrap-around dog next time. You carried me -- your little boy -- up to your shoulders all the way home. I was on top of the world.

TWO. I woke up at dawn, to a pale pink sky. We slept on your roof, and the mourners at your tita's wake were all gone. You and your friends were still asleep and that's fine -- the cold breeze rolling on the fields across your house was companion enough. I looked, and there you were; my fingers couldn't stop themselves from playing with your hair. Your friend woke up and wanted to (laughingly) throw me off the roof after seeing how I was looking at you. It didn't matter --
for the first time in my life I knew I could find what I was searching for.

THREE. You looked from me from across the room, and I knew we were both thinking of the same thing. You're late by 14 days, and we were both too proud to show that we were scared. I left our class and stood outside, gazing at the morning sky. Every bit of my being wanted to run -- away from everything, but I knew I would never do that to you, or to anyone. I just wish we could graduate from highschool.

FOUR. The Pantranco-bound jeep was taking forever to come, but it was midnight, and none of us minded the delay. I was standing beside you; and you, humming quietly in the dark. I pulled your shoulder closer, inadvertently placing your head on my chest. The move, of course, silenced us both; and the night dared us to ask the questions we dare not face. Pretty soon, I said to myself, I have to come out clean. I can't keep saying I'm just a friend when I'm holding you like this.

FIVE. I stopped and sat on concrete, on one of the buildings along Gil Puyat Avenue. It was around 2 in the morning, and I was blinded by tears on the long walk from Sheraton Hotel to Boni. Two drunken men walked past; a few minutes later, a gang of seven youths. Both groups left me unmolested -- even they could see I had nothing left to lose.

SIX. I ran -- because it was the only thing I could do. Strangers that we still were, I had no idea our bodies would meld so well. How each piece fit, how a simple hug can remind me of things I thought I already lost. I ran -- because otherwise I would never have let go.

SEVEN. You were busy staring at the ring, and oblivious to my observation. A few minutes ago, I read you the cheesiest of poems, and talked about things we already knew. Your eyes reflected a joy I vowed to remember; and I knew, at that instant, amidst all expectations, that I did good.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

because i haven't talked in a while

Ailene's been on this survey fix lately -- eh gaya gaya ako. And because I haven't talked here for quite some time. Who would have known I would miss you guys? ;-p



"Eh Kung pang Star Cinema lang ang buhay mo?"

50: Mountain Dew or Mello Yello? Mountain Dew. every time.

49: Sino mas maganda: Ashley Judd or Kate Beckinsale? Beckinsale, pare. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero naiyak ako sa Click nung matanda na sila at nagsasayaw sila nung kanta ng Cranberries. Sobrang ganda nya, hindi ako gumawa ng review bashing the movie Vacancy. Wag na lang nating pag-usapan, mabuburyong ka lang.

48: Which is faster: Subaru WRX or Mistubishi Evo Lancer IV? I have no idea. Mitsubishi Evo siguro. Antulin non sa NFS Most Wanted eh.

47: Who will win a fight between Captain Planet & San Goku? San Goku. syempre. Captain Planet is a wuss.

46: Where do you wanna be right now? Beach, actually. The rhythmic sound of the waves crashing on the shore... hypnotic.

45: Who are you closer to: mom or dad? Hmm... pareho lang ata.

44: Who is prettier: Cristy Fermin or Eagle? or.

43: Colt 45 or Red Horse? Di ko pa natikman kahit ano dito. hiluhin ako eh :p

42: Evanescence or Lacuna Coil? Di ko kilala Lacuna Coil kaya Evanescence na lang.

41: Metallica or Frank Sinatra? Frank Sinatra. Gusto ko sepia ako eh.

40: Linkin Park or Rick Astley? Again, di ko kilala si Rick Astley. Tsaka pag nagdo-dota ka sa internet shops pag madaling araw astig ang Linkin Park.

39: Who will win - Godzilla vs.King Kong? Di ba kayang magbuga ng apoy ni Godzilla?

38: Zsa-zsa Padilla or Kuh? Zaturnnah! (di ko napanood, actually. loser talaga.)

37: Cooler villain: Mr. Smith from Matrix or Deacon Frost from Blade? Smith. of the Mr. & Mrs movie. Biruin mong binugbog na sya ni Angelina tapos sex pa sila? San ka pa.

36: What if they Deacon Frost & Mr. Smith fought each other? Mr. Smith pa din. Deacon Frost wasn't that scary.

35: Deacon Frost vs. Captain Planet? Sige na nga, Deacon Frost. Bading si Captain Planet eh.

34: Shaider vs. Batman? Batman! Walang tatalo. Maski si Green Lantern ilag kay Batman eh.

33: Who would you rather be shipwrecked in an island with: A hot partner or Macguyver? a hot partner. deserted island and a hot partner -- ano pang hahanapin mo?

32: If Aliens attacked the Carebears, who will win? Carebears. stare pa lang talo ka na.

31: Is Nora Daza a better cook than your mom? No.

30: Is Joey De Leon funnier than your dad? Hell no.

29. Who is funnier? Adam Sandler or Jim Carrey? Mas gusto ko sila pag medyo drama.

28. Can Jason Bourne defeat Chuck Norris? Naku, condolence sa pamilya ng gumawa ng survey na 'to. Chuck Norris is out to get him for asking this question!

27: If a ninja fought a viking who would win? Ninja. May loser-mentality ang viking eh. They know that in the end, they will lose.

26: If you cross a Doberman with a Labrador, would you call it a Dobrador or a Laberman? I'll call it Poochy. Para akala ng mga kapitbahay maliit lang yung aso. Pag nagnakaw sila patay sila.

25: When was the last time you ate hot pandesal? It’s been too long. (tama ka, Ailene)

24. What if Jet Li fought a Grizzly Bear? Will his kung-fu be useful? Yep. Jet Li can fly. No special effects.

23. What if Jet Li fought your boss? Patay sya, di sya marunong mag-ingles eh.

22. What if Jet Li fought all the Liliputs in Gulliver’s Travel’s? Anuba. Da One nga si Jet Li eh.

21: Who is richer? Lucio Tan or Gokongwei? Lucio Tan. 3M per columnist para lang mapaganda image nya. wala pa din.

20: If your life is made into a Hollywood film. Who would you like to portray you? Yung nasa Mac Ads, yung tinulungan ni John McClane.

19: Eh kung pang Star Cinema lang ang pelikula ng buhay mo, sino ang gusto mong gumanap bilang “ikaw?” Jericho Rosales. Para nahahalikan ko si Heart. Saka sabi ni Angelica Panganiban sya daw ang best showbiz kiss nya eh. Para may pagkaka-pareho naman kami :p (naks!)

18: If Wolverine fought Edward Scissorhands, who will win? Wolverine. Don't mess with James.

17: If you were walking alone then suddenly a Lion came out from across the street looking at you, what would you do? Sayaw kaming Hakuna Matata.

16: Mas masarap ba ang isaw kaysa sa chicharon bulaklak? Mas gusto ko balun-balunan.

15: If 15 T-rexes attacked Godzilla, would he survive? Ano ba nakatalo kay Godzilla?

14: If 15 T-rexes attacked Chuck Norris, would he survive? Why do you think the dinosaurs became extinct in the first place?

13: If Jollibee fought Pong Pagong in an MTV celebrity deathmatch, who would you root for? Pong. Mukhang sabog to eh.

12: Kapag nagsapakan si Teofisto Guingona at si Gus Abelgas? Sino mananalo? Guingona din sa tingin ko.

11: Would you prefer fish fried or grilled? Grilled.

10: Who looks hotter… Heidi Klum or Cristy Fermin? Heidi Klum. yum.

9: Even if Heidi Klum only had 1 leg? How's that a disadvantage?

8: Even if Heidi Klum has bad breath? one word: gag.

7: Even if Heidi Klum had leprosy? Nagagamot nga yun. And while maysakit pa sya i'll be kind to her para mas gustuhin nya ko.

6: Okay, okay is Big Bird a boy or a girl? I don't care. I hate Sesame Street.

5: Sinigang na baboy or kare-kare? Sinigang. omaygads.

4: Kahit na double dead ang baboy sa sinigang? e di ako kumakain ng kare-kare eh.

3: Do you think you can outrun an angry bull elephant? oo.

2: Which pizza has more grease: Yellow Cab’s or Pizza Hut’s? Yellow Cab

1: Which tastes better: Minute Burger burgers or Burger Machine burgers? Burger Machine mehn. Kumakain ka ba nito? Bakit kailangan pang tanungin?


UP ako. Ikaw?



1. ANO’NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
98-****3 (masama ba kung sabihin talaga? bakit di-dinisclose ni ailene?)

2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
Journalism sa Diliman.

3. SECOND CHOICE?
Journalism. Baguio

4. ANO COURSE MO NA NATAPOS?
Journalism. Diliman.

5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
Bakit?

6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
uh. i actually don't know.

7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
Nope. At taga-Bulacan ako ha.

8. NAKA 4 KA BA?
Nevah.

9. NAG-KA 3 KA NA BA?
pinakamababa ko 2.25 ata eh. Math 1. hehe.

10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Oo. sayang pamasahe eh. Wala na nga akong pera magbubulakbol pa -- napakalaking katangahan naman non diba?

11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA B??
College Scholar. Minsan ata University Scholar din. A saka PDI scholar nga din pala ako.

12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
tapos na 'pre.

13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
Hindi.

14. FAVE PROF
may mga subjects lang na fun. ay si Rolando Tolentino pala enjoy na teacher. Danny Arao. Rachel Kahn. Yung teacher ko din ng Hum 1 magaling. Si Dean Teodoro di ko naging teacher pero ininterview ko sya for thesis. antalino. lahat ng analysis ata ng thesis ko galing sa kanya.

15. WORST TEACHER
May mga teacher na di pumapasok eh. bad trip.

16. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
Film Genres. Film 101. Philosophy of Religion. Sociology. Humanities 1 (astig to). Fiction writing.

17. WORST SUBJECT:
yung subject about rizal. di kasi pumapasok yung prof eh.

18. FAVE BUILDING:
ChristMass tambayan.

19. PABORITONG KAINAN:
Thai Canteen. pinaka-miss ko to sa UP. haaaaaaaaaaaay.

20. MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
Di ko na tanda pare, sorry.

21. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
Hindi. Di lang ako nawawalan ng librong dala. puro fiction.

22. NAGPUPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC?
nung nasapak ako ng lasing.

23. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
Dami syempre.

24. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING P.E. MO?
Swimming, Judo, Arnis, Table Tennis

25. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Naging close sila, ako di masyado. May sarili talaga akong mundo eh.

26. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG HYMN NIYO?
May hymn kami?

27. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
Nope. Sayang nga eh. Ganda daw ng jacket.

28. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Pag essay type lang.

29. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
Hindi. High school yan, syempre.

30. DITO KA BA UNANG NAINLOVE?
Oo. hehe. bwiset.


The Weirdest Survey. Ever.


01: Ano ang problema mo?
Too many games. So little time.

02: Bakit sadyang may mga taong tanga?
Pampa-aliw.

03: Ano ang masasabi mo sa mga taong mahilig manloko?
R E P E N T ! !

04: Sa paanong paraan magiging masaya ang isang tulad mo?
kapag may superpowers nako. Actually, may kumplikadong mythos na sa utak ko about it.

05: Kung luluha ka uli, ano o sino ang magiging dahilan nito?
Pag lumabas na ang Diablo 3.

06: Sino ang taong nagpapasaya sayo ngayon?
Si leah. Si ikay. Ako.

07: Bakit hindi sagot ang pagpapakamatay sa mga problemang dumarating sa ating buhay?
walang challenge eh.

08: Kaya mo bang magpakamatay para sa pagibig?
Kung nung dark and brooding ako hindi, ngayon pa?

09: Ano ang mga pangarap mo sa buhay?
Yung powers ko nga. Mag story-travel (like time travel, but across stories)

10: Kung may tao kang gustong patayin, sino ito?
Sa ngayon, wala. Mga child abusers siguro.

11: Bakit naman?
Bata yun eh!

12: Matapang ka ba?
Di naman. Pag kailangan lang.

13: Ano ang pinakamalaking kasalanang nagawa mo sa taon na ito?

14: Madali ka bang magsawa?
Hindi. Pag gusto ko, gusto ko na talaga.

15: Ano ang masasabi mo sa mga taong martyr?
'tanga.

16: Seryoso ka bang tao?
Dati, di na ngayon. Sayang oras eh.

17: ‘Pag namatay ka ngayong oras na ito, marami kayang tao ang iiyak?
Oh yeah. In the words of one ex, "pag nanggaling sa'yo, wala nang hahanapin pa."

18: Masakit ka bang magsalita pag galit ka?
Hindi. Kinukurot ko na lang. bruha.

19: Pikon ka ba?
Oo. Siguro. Di ko masyadong iniintindi eh.

20: Huling bilin?
Live. Grow Stronger. Fight another Day.


Yan na muna. Actually, I have a lot of stories to tell. Leah's ring. That essay I mean to write about the David men. How Marian Rivera won me over 5 seconds into her dance at the Marimar Press launch. Die Hard 4.0. The sea. Dying young. drooling over PSP. The twin swords Diem and Noctem. Less than 200 days before the wedding. Andami.


Maybe when I have the time. Pero mas malamang gagawa din ako nung Emo Verbal Snapshots. Sabi sa inyo gaya-gaya ako eh :p