Tuesday, October 09, 2007

checking in, whistling out

I was trying to write a post about me, my dad, and my lolo. Here's what I have so far:

Self-made man

“A self-made man” is usually a complement every male would want to be bestowed on him. It speaks of strength and of independence –- common virtues attributed to a MAN. If the main question a man asks in his life is “am I enough?,” being a self-made man answers that with a resounding yes, and more.

By any indication, I have surpassed my father (and his father before him) on academic achievement. Both of them were unable to finish college, while I passed mine with honors. With how the world judges one’s worth, on some aspects I have reached heights and garnered achievements that have proven beyond my father and my grandfather.

But as I look at them, I know -- I’d be lucky if I’d grow to be half the man they are.

That's it. That's all I have for now. In my head it's beautiful -- I just hope I could translate it on paper. Every father is a hero to his kid, they say, and in here I'm going to tell why my tatay and my lolo are my real heroes. Let me work on it some more. Hopefully, my lolo will still get to read it once it's ready.

I'm also working on what I'm going to share this Sunday. A year ago I spoke about women -- the question that defines their lives, and their biblical role. Now, I'll take a stab at men, and to be frank, I'm kind of afraid. Because once I talk about men and their brokenness, I will expose how short I fall from who I should be. But facing the truth is the start of redemption, right? I just hope that I could adequately point to the One who bestows true masculinity and help men in my church in the process.

I'm also reconnecting with friends, and that's always a good thing. John and I have a date later doing what we enjoy -- talking while dota-ing; and in the weekend I'm meeting my high school friends and strengthening the ties that bind us. In a twist I never saw coming, I am more open now to actually meeting people and talking to them than just putting my thoughts in paper. Is this growth?

Leah and I checked our wedding expenses and compared them with our incoming monies and -- well, let's just say we're going to get through it with just a shadow of a buffer. I'm not actually worried about it -- The Lord takes care of His children and I am at peace with that. But I'm also willing to do my part. So if you have some rakets you can throw my way, I'd be glad to take on the extra work. Don't worry, if I can't handle it, or if I'm too busy with other stuff, I'll tell you right away. The last thing I would want is to shortchange the people trying to help me.

That's not what a godly man would do, innit?

And that's what this week is all about.


ris said...

wow congrats, you're getting married na pala :) say hi to leah for me.

and the article (or at least the beginnings of it) is beautiful :)

graceaddict said...

that shop wasn't as hyped up as it looked.

kina-jason pa din.

im sorry man, im always asleep when you get there. hehehe. let's reconnect this sunday.

{illyria} said...

i think the essence of what you wanted to say made itself known quite powerfully. :)

good job on the expenses. and belated happy bday to leah as well.